R.I.P. Anthony

Christina is singing your favorite song, “Twinkle twinkle little star”

Anthony everyday i think of you. There is so much I thought we would share in the future.Your death has really made me see things/life through different eyes. I thought I knew before that life was short and we should live it to the fullest, but i guess i didnt practice living that way. If I did, we would have had more memories. Im sorry for letting the devil come into our lives and rob us of that love we could have share. I promise I wont let anything come between our family again. I love this song and when I hear it I think of you. This is dedicated to you, Our Beautiful Angel!!

That was one of his favorite shirts. I tried to throw it away several times lol. Whatever I would put on him would quickly come off and get replaced with this or something either yellow, green and sometimes blue. I’m glad I have that shirt now.

lyric

I fall in love with you
there’s nothing nothing I can do
I fall in love with you
so i run and run and run to you

I’ll find a way its never too late, I give you my word
I’ll find the place its never too late for love

ah ah ah ah ah ah ahhh
loving you, loving you
my love

I fall in love with you
there’s nothing nothing I can do
I fall in love with you
so i run and run and run to you

Lyrics:
To say goodbye to you.

Wish I could whistle down the Northern Lights
And send them dancing all across the night
Maybe then when all the sky was blazing
Maybe then I’d feel you somewhere
gazing at a star,
And you could feel me too
as I say goodbye to you

It breaks my heart in two, to say goodbye to you
Wish time could turn us back to yesterday
The gods above would look the other way
Maybe then we still could laugh together
Maybe then it could be spring forever and a day
But I must face the truth and say goodbye to you
It breaks my heart in two, to say goodbye to you

Wish I could whistle down the Northern Lights
And send them dancing all across the night
Maybe then in my memories for saving
One last time you’re on the hill waving from afar
One last glance or two and I’ll say goodbye to you
It breaks my heart in two, to say goodbye to you

The afternoon before I lost Anthony, around 4 or 4:30 we were watching “Beverly Hills Chihuahua ” and this song is in the movie. It was very moving to me and I went and sat the computer and looked it up on youtube. I wanted to learn to sing it and do a cover of it on youtube. But just as I sat down Anthony came wanting to be picked up. So I did and realized he was sleepy. So I sang the part of the song I could remember from the movie until he fell asleep. It was a late nap and he ended up sleeping until around 8 something. Usually, he woke up after his bedtime I would put him right back to sleep. But he had missed dinner so I made him a really good meal and then let him stay up really late with me. He ended up waking up Christina who was also hungry. When Anthony saw Christina eating he wanted to eat again. So of course I fed him. He finished his second meal faster than Christina finished her first. Tony was telling her she eats too slow and to eat more like Anthony. And I said no, take your time and chew 32 times….I just wish I had enforced it even more. I miss Anthony so much. This song, I can’t believe this was the last song I song to him.